>>28158
I didn't sleep last night because I wanted to sing freely butt I 'couldn't' due to my need to 'hide.' What began as a self-protective mechanism ended-up self-destructive, really it always was... butt I just thought if I held off (being me) for long enough I would be able to move out and live my life. I've been at war with myself for decades now, and have serious scars, spiritual and physical, to show for it. Self-censorship is the worst of all. Yet, not even my mother will ever accept me, the fact that I do not fit neatly into the 'male' category or rather, the behavior expected of the 'male' category. I should have left when I was 19 and never looked back. I deeply regret not doing so, and instead, losing all my money in the
(((casino-markets))) instead of buying a modest place to live. Singing is my passion, and since my 'family' was/is in the way of my being able to sing freely, this passion has turned to passionate hate. I passionately hate my 'family' for the decades of extreme distress they have caused me... butt have nowhere else to go due to lack of $. I hate them for more reasons than just that I cannot feel comfortable to sing freely, of course. Their dogmatism that leads them to torment their own children (me) and embrace niggers is disgusting. Yes, my 'family' has their merits, but the downsides are infinite for me. I HAVE NOT LIVED, ONLY SURVIVED la~
Edited last time by Voxxe on 12/16/2023 (Sat) 22:26:33.