I want to be raped so badly. My first ever wet dream was being raped by another man. Sexually, it's all I can think of. Having another man grab by pathetic wrists, hold me down, and shove himself into me dry. Even better is imagining him killing me, driving a knife into me and telling me how I was only ever a good fuck I'm not even attracted to men. I've never cared about men's faces or bodies. All I can think of is the dick. Having one forced into me. Sometimes I wish I had the guys to be a criminal so I could hopefully get raped in prison. Maybe it's because I was bullied so much. In all honesty, I enjoyed when my bullies held me down and physically abused me physically. I also enjoyed being beaten by my parents.