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I'd want to be a petite, slender girl in early teens or just looking like that (young enough to be a bit childish, but old enough for big girl fun and act reasonably independently when needed) in a relationship with a loving gentle mommy domme with nice full lactating breasts. I imagine my mommy in this scenario leaves me to basically be a housewife to do the cleaning, cooking, and other domestic work and likes to relax when she gets home from work with her little girl at her breast and enjoys dominating me in the bed room. I imagine a regular scenario where when she comes home from work, undresses, and she gets comfortable then goes to the couch with the expectation for me to unprompted to either nurse from her or eat her out to help her destress and relax.
Maybe a daddy too. Personally I'm bisexual but prefer women. Perhaps "daddy" in this case is a futanari with a thick cock.
When she has the time my mommy would enjoy doting on me as her little girl, occasionally restraining me and putting me in very thick diapers to be treated like an infant for a weekend or extended vacation, just her helpless little girl who's only concern is pleasing mommy. Other times we might go out for a date night with me being a bit embarrassed at her childish preferences in the clothing I wear and always making sure I'm at least wearing a thinner pullup when out because she respects me enough to know I'd prefer to be discreet about it in public.
Is it weird that a lot my fantasies surrounding this are basically just having someone that actually loves me and I can give value too? As a guy, my entire adult life I've felt rather worthless or only as good as what physical labor I can provide for others. My gender bender fantasies (not even just specifically ABDL) have me in a monogamous domestic sex kitten role (or perhaps polygamous, there's a certain appeal to a sister/wife or two to play with and love just as much when mommy or daddy isn't around and chores are done) and both me and my partner being completely okay with that.
I sometimes think that if I wasn't such an anxiety ridden mentally ill coward and actually had a woman who gave a shit and valued me as a man while not thinking I'm a freak or disturbing for showing emotion or discussing things sexual we could both enjoy in private I wouldn't have as much interest in this.
A lot my relationship fantasies in general aren't even sexual, just having someone who genuinely loves and respects me and makes me feel like I'm actually useful and have a purpose while not thinking I'm a pervert if I reveal my sexual fantasies to her. Sometimes I think there's something wrong with me for just wanting a loving romantic relationship that doesn't have to be completely sexual even if that is part of it.