I couldn't find any thread like that, so I'll start one.
Can you pinpoint when, more or less, you started being interested in diapers? And do you see any reasons for this?
One of my biggest puzzle in life is why I'm ABDL at all. I couldn’t point to specific time when I started to be DL, but surely before my 13 or even 12 birthday it was actually fully developed.
I know that theory about fetishes, which says that they're based on our first sexual exeriences. The problem is, that I had started to be interested in diapers before I even masturbated for the first time (Which actually happened surprisingly late in my case.) or had any awareness of my sexuality. Wasn’t actually linking my diaper fascination with anything sexual.
Many ABDL people mentions that they had bedwetting issues or younger sibling who wore diapers, what probably affected them. But I was a only child, whose had been diapered last time somewhere between 2-3 birthday. My only real contact with diapers before that was my younger cousin, but I saw her maybe twice a year.
Interestingly, talking hindsight, I can say that long before I became aware of my diaper attraction, diapers somehow were stuck in my mind. One of my earliest memories, actually my earliest memory, is asking my mother to change me because the diaper tape was irritating my skin. For many years afterward, when, for example, I felt a T-shirt tag on my skin, it brought back this memory. Cartoon scenes featuring diapers stick in my memory, like the only scene I remember from I Am Weasel is baby pooping his diaper In I.R. Mommy episode. I can't recall ever seeing diapers as disgusting, strange, etc. as a child. Rather, as interesting in a way. I remember going through a photo album when I was maybe 9 years old and wondering whether or not I was still in a diaper in some of the pictures.
One thing, that comes to my mind is that my parents divorced when I was 8-9yo. I’m not sure, how much it affected me, as since many years earlier, my father was rather a guest in our house. I just remember that for a while, maybe only a year, I panicked a lot when my mother was late. It only took 10-15 minutes for me to go into a panic cry. It was a short period, and it ended as quickly as it began. My mother was obviously very protective, but I wouldn't call her overprotective. In myself, moreover, I have always been rather quiet and shy. It would connect nicely with AB and age regression, but the problem is that in my case it originally started with DL alone. All the rest came later, once I had the Internet and discovered that I was not alone in these preferences.
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