>>1934664
>Being obligated to deal with women makes you by default infinitely worse off than other anons.
As much as some people joke about it, I don't think most anons are gay. But part of my problem is that I do have empathy, so sometimes people tell me that others have it worse than me, but when it is true, that doesn't make me feel better, it makes me feel worse, because I then just feel bad for those people as well. That said, when people outside this site say it, they're usually wrong, or they have to use cliches like "starving children" or whatever. (Which is true, but again, doesn't make me feel better.) But when people here say it... man, I feel bad for the average anon. Because say what you will about how stupid this is, but I do think most of you are good guys. People think that being anonymous means we don't know each other, but that isn't true. It means we know each other better than anybody. We're our true selves, and we have understandings that are hard to achieve in real life.
>>1934824
>that said get over yourself.
I try. My problem is that I can't help but see and have to interact with people who have it way better than me and take it for granted, so it makes me envious, and that makes me depressed. And I spent decades escaping into fantasy so that I wouldn't run into those people, but new fantasy has all been taken over by the worst types of those "people," who make it their mission to kill all our escapism and shove their faces into all of it so we can never get away from it. So I indulge in retro stuff instead. But eventually I start running out of retro stuff I love. I can only relive my childhood so much. Eventually instincts start kicking in and tell me to start living, so I try, and I fail to live. In the morning, I get up, and I try to feel alive, but I can't.
>You'll die alone regardless accept it.
No. If I were to actually manage to have a family, I'm confident I'd die before them, so I wouldn't be alone.
Your advice is still reasonable. But where else would I spend my time? Playing vidya? I do an awful lot of that anyway. We've had threads here about listing games we've actually beaten, and when I post my list, people are baffled at how much longer it is than everyone else's. And vidya isn't even my primary hobby these days. So many movies and tv shows and books. And I don't even think of them as wastes of time, because frankly they're what I did when I couldn't do anything else anyway, and I couldn't do anything else because nobody wanted to do anything else with me. And then I got old enough to have to work, and I do. And I guess the other thing people say to do is exercise, so I spend hours every day doing that now, and I still have enough time left to play so much vidya that I get bored of it.
But despite having all this time, I still feel the time ticking and running out, because I know I'm wasting it, but not by choice. It's not the vidya's fault I'm wasting it, it's not that I'm addicted, it's that I have nothing else to do. It's already being wasted, so I might as well play vidya.
>>1935045
>Just because you've gotten older doesn't mean you've done what you needed to
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